I can’t pinpoint the exact time that my fear of praying for God’s will changed, but I do know the thing that made it change. His word. Getting to know Him through His word and seeing His true nature. There are so many verses that renewed my mind in this regard. One that specifically comes to mind is Hebrews 1:3 “The Son reflects God’s own glory, and everything about him represents God exactly…” Isn’t that amazing!! Jesus is the exact representation of God. You see Jesus and you see God. I see God’s marvelous love for us in the way Jesus healed everyone. He never denied healing to anyone that asked, so I see that God wants us well! It is his will to heal! I see God in the way Jesus loved everyone. Rich, poor, young, old, sinner, saint - he welcomed and loved all of them. He welcomes and loves us in spite of who we are, not because of who we are. We very literally are His children and His love for us is immeasurable. Think of the love that you have for your children. Think of the goodness and love you want poured out over your child’s life. Think about how that no matter how many times your child fails, makes bad choices, and is just an independent, rebellious, little stinker - your love for that child never wavers. That is the same love that our God desires to lavish upon us. So praying His will over your life is the best thing you could ever pray for. Being in the center of God’s will is the best and safest place you will ever be.
There was a time not too long ago when I would not pray for God’s will to be done in my life, or anyones life. It was a scary thought to me. I really didn’t even like saying the Lord’s prayer because of the “thy will be done” part. Eeee! I didn’t know what His will was. What would he use to teach me - sickness, injury, death, more life challenges? It makes me sad now thinking back to how much I didn’t give God credit for, and how the things I gave Him credit for were not of Him. The difficulties I have faced in my life, so many were brought upon by myself and my own bad choices. Some were choices of others that directly affected me. Some were straight up the enemy. The glory though is this. Looking back, I can see clearly that He was the one who delivered me from every single negative, difficult, ugly thing in my life. And he continues to. He takes every bad thing and pours His goodness and glory over it. Turns every ugly mess into something beautiful. I could give you so many examples. Negative things in my life, by the grace of God, that He somehow laced with His goodness. My parents divorcing, my mom remarrying a man who was not a good man, having to move to a new state and new school, my real dad not seeing us again after my mom remarried, getting kicked out of my house during my senior year, a horribly bad decision I made in college…these are ones that stand out because I can see now how He turned events that would have crumbled me, into events that He wove into major blessings. Psalm 24:6 “Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” You see that. He pursues us with his goodness and unfailing love. YES!!!